A lot can happen in a year | My 2015



This year has been one of the worst and best years of my life. The start of the year, from what I remember, was pretty dull. Alexander and I were only five months into our relationship. My blog posts were pretty lame but I managed to get a few good posts in there - See Archives - random yet funny is what I would call it. 

To this day I still see Bloggers writing similar things, even Lush has become overly popular that I am sick of this word. Pretty Little Liars became this new phenomenon and everyone raved about who A was - who gives a shit? It was some crazy girl program, but who am I to judge? I watch Keeping Up With The Kardashians for god's sake. 

Tea and Cake has also become very popular this year - okay, coffee drinkers, I got your back too in this - I have also been drawn into this obsession. Tea and Cake. Tea and Cake. How British and la-di-da of us! 

I have learnt so much this past year with blogging. There have been dramas with a certain unwanted person; there have been ups and downs with my blog and motivation to keep it going; there have been many many times where I have taken time away from my blog to figure myself and my life out, and to figure out what I really wanted to do with my time. Blogging has always been therapeutic to me, so my conclusion in my breaks, were to keep it going.

Adding to learning so much about Blogging, I have noticed a LOT of copyright breaching; bloggers think they are getting away with it due to saying they have changed it "their way" or "slightly different and original to them," Like - NO. If it looks almost exactly the same, you are using pretty much the same blog post written, or you are trying to pass something off as your own, its COPYRIGHT. I understand there being thousands, maybe millions of bloggers so genres, picture styles, and content may be similar but copyright is when it looks spitting image! We need to be careful out there - noticed you can't right click on my blog? Yeah.... you know why now.

Also, I gave up looking at my Statistics on Google Analytics as I figured I just want to blog for fun, not for the followers and the stats (plus right now my GA has decided not to record any of my stats - a sign?) Blogging began because I wanted to vent my thoughts and feelings down, not for the fame that is almost impossible to get anyway! Cancelling out my daily stats checking really has made me feel so much more free; no pressure. 

Obviously there are Bloggers out there who compete for the glory, but I am definitely not one of those. Who has the time and effort, but also the serious bitchy attitude to try and outsmart and outdo the higher and most known Bloggers in the world. You either make it or you don't. Keep blogging YOUR way and the amount of times YOU want to do each week, but also interact with your readers and followers, and you may or may not make it. 

Life isn't about pleasing or even changing who you are for the rest of the world. You began your blog (if you blog) for you so you could write about your chosen subject(s) not for the fame and money grabbing area of Blogging. I won't judge you for blogging for a career, fame or money, because everyone wants to have a stable income whether that is making it large or small. Everyone wants to be famous, right? 

I did want to be. However, this year I have noticed how horrible of a world it could be with your whole life being judged by no other than lifeless, jealous trolls who want to just shit on your parade out of jealousy. Don't get me wrong, it would be nice to be known for my Blog and my hard work, but then I think about all the hate and I just feel put off; my Blog isn't going to stop being updated because of this small fear. You never know what will happen - I may make it, I may not - it's not important to me.

For those considering starting a blog, I wrote a blogging guide for beginners here. Whether you are choosing to start a blog for fame & glory, money, or just to write down your thoughts, feelings, views, reviews, and other interests, GOOD LUCK! 



As I mentioned at the beginning of this post, this year has been one of the worst and best years of my life. Why the worst? I lost my Nana to Terminal Lung Cancer on May 2nd. I wrote all about her story in Diary Entries here. She was one of the closest people in my life - a second Mum - I told her everything and shared my life with her with no objections. Life without her, still, is so damn hard and I do struggle still with coping; Alexander is always there to hold me tight whilst I snot and drool over his shoulder, but he doesn't care, he always reminds me that tears are just droplets of weakness leaving my body. 

Nana was the only one that knew that me and Alexander were trying for a baby, so only three months later, I conceived with Rhea-Jane. I am a firm believer in the Afterlife and how passed family members can help you with your troubles in life - conceiving being one of them; I fell pregnant shortly after my Nana's death and I believe she gave me Rhea-Jane as a gift. 

Bit of a coincidence you say? Yeah it may be a coincidence, but we all have our own beliefs. Maybe I think this because it gives me some comfort in my Nana's passing. Maybe I like thinking that my baby is a gift from my Nana. Maybe I just don't want to think that once a person passes away, they disappear forever. Maybe I want to believe that Rhea-Jane is a gift from someone so god damn important to me that it makes me tear up from the thought of my Nana's generosity and love towards me.

Rhea-Jane is the best thing that has happened to me this year. I love her so much even though she is not born yet. 

My year has spiralled. My world has been shaped. My life has been confusing. By the end of 2015, I have realised what has been most important to me in life and learnt so much in just 365 days. Life is short; anything can happen. Take what you have and treasure it because one day it will not be there - harsh as it sounds, it's true. Hold tight to your loved ones; treasure every memory; create new experiences; get rid of the evil and pain in your life. 

A lot can happen in a year; things you won't expect, things you will look forward to, and things you will regret. I have had one crazy year. Let's hope 2016 is more kind to everyone and everything. 

I, for one, am looking forward to what this year brings to me; my Nephew is due 19th March and Rhea-Jane is due 4th May. It is going to be one hectic but exciting year for me and my family!

Are you excited for this new year?
After all, we are all human. 






Much love,

12 comments:

  1. I'm sorry for your loss, but I like that found out you were pregnant at the time you needed it most! Looking forward to seeing pics when she arrives :) x

    Holly ∣ Closingwinter

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    1. Thank you Holly it means a lot that you care! Definitely, she was such an amazing surprise. Don't worry, there will be PLENTY of pictures for you to see :D x

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  2. I bet your nan would be so proud of you! I think I'm a little sick of hearing about lush after all the Christmas posts lol i found you online last year so that has been a great upside to my year! Xxx

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    1. awww Elle you cutie! So glad you found me online; i'm glad we finally got talking :D xxx

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  3. Sorry to hear about your nan gorgeous, she would be so proud of how far you have come and I can't wait for your little one to be born so you can write lots of mummy posts! I am proud of you babe :D

    Love Olivia | www.dungarees-and-donuts.co.uk xo

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    1. It really means alot thankyou. She was the best person in my life! Oh yes plenty of mummy posts with pictures :D aw Olivia you're gonna make me cry :') xx

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  4. I'm so sorry about your nana, but I'm so buzzing for May and getting to see photos of your little girl! This is such an exciting time for you :D

    aportraitofyouth.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thank you so much Anne! May is going to be one exciting month! :D xx

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  5. Sad to hear about your Nana but lovely that you have Rhea-Jane and Alexander by your side! I really liked this post because you were honest without being too harsh and that's a quality not many have.

    Jenna
    | princessparasox.wordpress.com | bloglovin' |

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    1. Thank you for the comment and views, i appreciate it. I wasn't meant to be harsh at all, i'm a very honest and open person! Thank you xx

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  6. I'm sorry about your Nana. I got so emotional reading about her when you shared that post with me months ago! So sad! I can fully appreciate how awful it must've been for you - I had the same relationship with my Taid.

    But amazing that you found out you were pregnant shortly after! Definitely a sign! My Nain always said that in order for new life to be created that someone has to leave this life to make room. Your Nana was simply making room for your beautiful baby girl! (Beautiful name by the way!)

    Hope all goes well with the rest of your pregnancy and I promise I'll send those clothes and stuff ASAP! x

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  7. I love how real and honest this post was!

    I'm so sorry for your loss, I understand what it's like losing someone so close to you due to cancer - horrible. I also believe your pregnancy was a lovely little gift from your Nana.

    Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy x

    Caoimhe
    Blend and Bronze

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